06-10-25

I've been feeling so depressed. I have no motivation to do anything, I can't find myself to care about my upcoming assignments. I already turned in some assignments way too late and others were uncompleted, or not done at all. Today, I missed class and I didn't get anything done. I feel so hopeless. BUT I TURNED 21 THIS PAST WEEK !!

I didn't do anything special for my birthday. My friend didn't remember my birthday, but that's okay, we are more casual than close. My friends and my close family members back home wished me a happy birthday so that was nice. This was my third birthday without my family. With my family, we would usually go out to eat at a Chinese buffet or a Mexican restaurant , and I might get a small cake or cupcakes with my immediate family members. I think I miss being with everyone and I hate that I haven't gotten over it. Honestly, it's what probably made my week so hard since I don't really have anyone to lean on.

Although this past week was brutal, I still wanted to celebrate making it to 21! So on the weekend, I went downtown and browsed the comic store. I ended up buying volumes 4 and 5 of MDZS and a pin of Ermes from Jojo's Bizarre Adventure! I first read MDZS when it was a webnovel with no official English translation. This was back in 2020 and it's a series I held close to my heart. Especially the character Wei Wuxian. I loved him so much and I admired everything about him. So, when I heard it got licensed, I knew I had to collect them all. I've had the first volume for a while, so when I saw the last two volumes I knew I needed them. Especially volume 4.

SPOILERS FOR MDZS VOL 4: My favorite moment from MDZS is when Wei Wuxian is reminiscing about falling down a tree in the past and seeing Lan Wangji down there waiting for him GOD IT MAKES ME SO EMOTIONAL. Then seeing him jump and have Lan Wangji catch him, confirming he is someone he could finally rely on after all these years of being alone, makes me cry every time. They mean so much to me.

As for other updates, I watched the first episode of This Monster Wants to Eat Me! It's so good so far! Seeing Hinako go through depression struck a bit close to home. The visuals were so beautiful and I can't wait to see how the story unfolds! As for current obsessions, the fan art of the damn TV headed man and short puppet from Deltarune are slowly taking over me. Especially Spamton in his big shot era because OH MY GOD they draw him so good. SpamTenna NSFW art feeds me so well. I actually debated buying the game on my switch but I have too many games I need to finish (I SWEAR I'LL FINISH ZELDA ONE DAY) so I MIGHT watch a playthrough of the game…

So yeah, that's how I spent my week. Hopefully I can lock in this week and end the week stronger than how I left last week. Fall break is coming up so that's something exciting! Might go see a movie or bing watch some shows !